Second time is different - I have said this before.. 0f course it is.. because it's a special one...
Yesterday I lost a piece of me. The lil being that just occured to be our new episode of life. Yeah, I lost my baby, which I had begin to care and love. Plans were already made for it, plenty of plans, I assume, and you all knew that too. But it seems that it has a plan on its own. And Allah has a plan of His own on all this as well. A friend said; I dont sound sad, and dont look sad either. But hey, who doesnt?? Especially when you lost something that is very special - a gift from Allah.
But I am being strong, accepting this as Allah's willing. Redha dengan segala ketentuanNya. Pasti ada berbagai hikmah dalam setiap kejadian. Tidaklah bertambah iman seseorang jika tidak di uji dengan musibah dan dugaan. Alhamdulillah.. at least, I know that I am in the eyes of Allah, being tested in such a way to make me a stronger person, a stronger believer.
"Every baby is a miracle" - we heard this everyday. And today I learnt that even an unborm child is a miracle - by the way they teaches us and make us realise what a miracle is.
For all those who care, thank you very much. I am alright and so far healthy.. the D&C thingie runs well yesterday and i'm at home resting. Insyallah.. one day ada rezeki lain..