Friday, December 17, 2010

its over

Confinement finally over!!! Pejam celik haa?? dah abis dah? Well, it seems like yesterday! so many things i havent accomplish! EBM not that much yet, bottle training was not going well, I havent done any thing to the house e.g arranging books on those racks, fixing buttons yada, yada, yada....

Luckily I have applied for the additional one month leave. Or else i'll be entering the office unprepared.

But, the good news is.. I got thru post partum!! Hah! Good bye postpartum!! I win!! U lose!! I dont end up being a wacko, alhamdulillah... and I am now so in love with Nasuha, and the whole family.

Things were new for all of us.. but it seems making us all happy in the end. Hope this stays, this feeling stays.

So, for now-i have to work-to get back to the office.

and what is that???

1. Pump more
2. Bottle training
3. Prepare her things to the nursery
4. Register with the nursery
5. Get clothes - all mine now dont suit for breastfeeding

Oh bonus... please come.. :((

Monday, November 29, 2010

6 weeks?

ha???????? already 6 weeks? and just another 6 weeks to go???

I havent got a lot EBM stock yet. Many more to collect!!!! (suspen!)
And Nasuha is not ready to be sent to nursery yet.

save our seafood?

S.O.S - Save our Seafood - thats what i heard. Watched nasi lemak kopi o last week and this campaign was brought up. And again, Mye mentioned it in our twitter conversation - she was in Sabah at that time.
What is it? Well, it sounds like we are saving the ocean life.. yes it is.. but - the campaign is also about not to eat some species of seafood! Well, could we?

Seafood has been one of our main food source all this while, all these decades. We have been eating fish and some other seafood for the whole of our life!! And I am quite shock to know about the campaign. You could read more here. From research, it was found that ocean life species has degrade. To naturalists, it is not a shocking news. Deforestation happened, and so many species were almost gone from the earth, it could happen on earth, so, for sure it could happen in the sea rite? Its just that we dont see it coming. For these animals, we were concern because we are worried we couldnt see them anymore, grandchildren wouldnt know what a pola bear is one day.

But oceanic species.. it was corals at first, and not everyone care - because not every one dives, and we dont live in the ocean - so.. be it. But fishes??? We eat them!!! We need them!!! Dont hunt and kill tigers, ok.. we are fine with that. But didnt eat fish????? How could we??

Yes, the campaign doesnt say dont eat all types of fish, there are only some species and some are still 'allowed' to eat. But those 'labelled' as to be avoided are most common species that we were havig all these while. Those are like, siakap, kerapu, pari, terubuk etc etc. huhuhu how could i not eat siakap?? Zahraa loves them, and its the easiest to cook! (ok, lame excuse)

Here's what to avoid from S.O.S

Recommended Think Twice Avoid
Lala clam (Peninsular Malaysia, Hand picking) Longtail shad (Malaysia, Drift gillnet) Silver pomfret (Malaysia, Trawl)
Anchovies (Malaysia, Purse-seine, Lift net) Carpet clam (Peninsular Malaysia, Dredger) Black Pomfret (Malaysia, Trawl)
Yellow banded scad (East coast PM & Sabah, Purse-seine) Sea cucumber (Malaysia, Hand-picking) Ray (Peninsular Malaysia, Trawl)
Oval squid (Peninsular Malaysia, Trap) John's snapper (West coast PM & Sabah, Hook & line) Threadfin breams (Malaysia, Trawl)
Longfin grey mullet (Malaysia, Drift gillnet) Fourfinger threadfin (West coast PM, Bottom gillnet) Dorab wolf-herring (Peninsular Malaysia, Trawl)
Tuna (Malaysia, Purse-seine, Drift net) Flower crab (West coast PM, Bottom gillnet) Flounder (Malaysia, Trawl)
Indian mackerel (Malaysia, Purse-seine, Drift net) Red snapper (East coast PM & Sabah, Hook & line) Silver Sillago (Malaysia, Trawl)
Spanish mackerel (Malaysia, Drift gillnet, Hook & line) Banana prawn (Malaysia, Bottom gillnet) Indian squid (Malaysia, Trawl)
Hard-tail scad (Malaysia, Purse-seine, Drift net) Coral grouper (Sabah & Sarawak, Trap) Needle cuttlefish (Malaysia, Trawl)
Mangrove red snapper (Peninsular Malaysia, Cage, Pond) Seabass (Peninsular Malaysia, Cage) Mud-spiny lobster (Peninsular Malaysia, Trawl)
Humpback grouper (Peninsular Malaysia, Cage) Tiger prawn (Peninsular Malaysia, Pond) Slipper lobster (Malaysia, Trawl)
Giant grouper (Peninsular Malaysia, Cage) White-leg prawn (Peninsular Malaysia, Pond) Humphead wrasse (Sabah, Cynide)
Snubnose pompano (Peninsular Malaysia, Cage) Brown-marble grouper (Peninsular Malaysia, Cage) Mantis shrimp (Malaysia, Trawl)
Blood cockle (Peninsular Malaysia, Bottom culture) Bigeye trevally (Malaysia, Trawl)
Green mussel (Peninsular Malaysia, Rack) Brownstripe red snapper (Peninsular Malaysia, Trawl)
Oysters (Peninsular Malaysia, Rack) Coral trout (Peninsular Malaysia, Trawl)
Mud crab (Peninsular Malaysia, Pond) Duskytail grouper (Peninsular Malaysia, Trawl)
Orange-spotted grouper (Peninsular Malaysia, Trawl)
Malabar grouper (Peninsular Malaysia, Trawl)
Sixbar grouper (Peninsular Malaysia, Trawl)
Orange-spotted grouper (Peninsular Malaysia, Cage)

The gradation of fish, and ocean species are mostly caused by those greedy modern fisherman. Bot tunda, and those method that uses explosives to get fish are the main culprit - and we are the victim now.

I am not sure yet whether to support this campaign. They say, we should do this for 2 years, till the species bundled up again. How do we know??? We need fish!! Or at least I need those siakap!! Believe me, the prices of these fish will be doubled up after this. (naik harga lagik???)

Monday, November 22, 2010


I feel like... shopping..
hmm nak beli apa?

Barang Nasuha - bottles, clothes, stuff nk bwk nursery

Barang mamanya - byk! Hahahaha - nursing blouse, nursing bra, some new clothes, handbag, tudung bla bla bla

Well.. barang nak beli banyak. berangan je la... hahahahahah

Monday, November 15, 2010

zahraa and nasuha

Zahraa seems to be more interested into Nasuha compared to the first week being intoruduced to her. she loves to touch Nasuha's about to grow hair, her cheeks and eye lashes.. and of course..dah sampai tahap geram dia picit Nasuha! We had to watch out now..
Zahraa still does not understand of the changes having Nasuha around.. Of course she is just 2, what do I expect? We just had to remind her again and again to be gentle with adik... and that part 'Zahraa, dont shout... adik nak nak tido' - is never understood... hahahah so I have to deal with putting Nasuha to sleep again and again.

the challenge of having two kids - to put them both to sleep!! Sometimes both wants to sleep at the same time, some other time both scream and cry and the same time.. ( I wonder, and salute moms with twins..) some of the days Zahraa wont sleep till I settle down, and of course I cant do that till Nasuha is put to sleep.. most of the days, I cradle Nasuha in one hand, and pat Zahraa with the other.

The moment I love most - is to sleep in between these two girls, both are sleeping and i'm staring at them... alhamdulillah.. what have I done good till be blessed with these two angels. (tapi kesian.. zahrein kena cast away from the main bed... )

Their similarities - suka dipeluk.. and suka tido in our arms .. i think all babies are like that. I do know some babies just lie and sleep all day long, lucky their moms.. but in some ways, babies who sleep in mothers arms are lucky babies... oh yes, i'm tired, body ache, name it all, holding them all day long.. but in the end, I am glad and I am happy.

To my unmarried friends, and to my friends who are still waiting for an angel to cherish their marriage, I do hope and pray that one day, you'll be blessed with a healthy child, a boy or a girl, who would turn around your world and change the true meaning of life. Just like my kids did to me.. Amin....

Monday, November 8, 2010

Zahraa's pose

This is what I did with Zahraa - pre-delivery .... haha this is so funny... Dia kacau saya kemas baby cot, wants to be in it.. and then nak posing pulak, and ask me to capture her pictures..

second time around is not the same

Alhamdulillah, its my 20th day of my confinement, almost halfway right? At some times, i felt like it flies fast...cant remember how I felt when Nasuha was 1 day old...and at some other time, I felt like it has been a loooongggg month (this is the longest day of my life; imitating Jack Bauer of 24).

I am up and well again.. alhamdulillah.. I can help with some of the housework now, can read to Zahraa again, can watch tv together again.. heheh and most of all... can blog again! I am bored surfing the net, using my E72.. and I cant blog thru the phone (imagine I could... I wonder how much blabss would I write).

It is different this time as I spend my confinement in our own house, when I gave birth to Zahraa, I was 'sent' to KL to spend confinement at my in laws. And I had a bad time...missing Zahrein most of the time, dunno what to do with crying lil Zahraa... and post partum blues was a long one for me.

So we decide to confine here! And guess what!! Post partum didnt leave me alone!!!! it did swept me thru until the 2nd week! What was it about this time.... ???? Its about Zahraa! I missed Zahraa so much, yet she is there, right in front of my eyes.. I cried everytime she went out from the house, I cried when seeig her sleep... my excuse was i pity her... i thought its a pity that she already had another sibling, yet she is still a lil girl, and need all my attention. And I miss dressing her up, holding her, playing with her, colouring, giggling, and watching tv together.

Until my bestfriends wakes me up, reminding me it was the same with Nasuha and Zahraa. Nasuah was liltle now, so I cant do much together with her, but once she was up and bounce, I can share the whole world with her, just like I did with Zahraa... The happiness I had with Zahraa will be double up with lil Nasuha, that was what they assure me.

And yes, that makes me think again.. maybe it is all true enough, and I am being all emosional all by myself..Zahraa is doing great with her abah, spending time they havent had before. I should just let them bond, and let Zahrein go thru the sweet times that I had all this while with Zahraa. And I am suppose to be fair to Nasuha, she needed to be known to be well loved, she is now glowing to show me what she had to offer.. I am now suppose to take this time-being alone with her, to get to know her and fall inlove with with this new baby. Oh, I am being selfish all this while, am I not?

Yes, second time around is not the same, of course.. because I am different now, and its a different child. Every child is different and unique on her own. Zahraa is different, and Nasuha is special on her own too. It is so not fair comparing one child to another. Whoever the child is.

Now, since I am healthier I hope to spend time for both of my girls.. taking advantage of this leave to be with Nasuha, fulfilling with her needs.. and at the same time, cuddling with Zahraa again, sneaking in between times when Nasuha is asleep.

I hope I could do this, to be there for both of my girls. Our world has change now, with Nasuha it in, just hoping its a happier and more blessed life, Insyallah.. may Allah guide me and help me get thru this.

And post partum blues... I might say goodbye to you soon enough.. sooner than the first time .. because... the second time around would never be the same ........

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

labor story

For all mommy bloggers - well.. most of them.. - labor story entry is a must.. As it might be shared with someone out there.. or its just to be kept written - just for ourselves to remember.. only because - labor story is very special for each person....

I have been on leave since the 14th, doc told me I am 1cm dilated and could be delivering my baby any time soon. However, Zahraa was on high fever. At that time - even though the feeling of wanting to get the baby out is soooo obvious - I just hope it wont happen.. not until Zahraa is well.. Then Zahrein fell sick too. Losing his voice... Oh no! At that time, all I was thinking was to get this 2 to get well... While actually at that moment, I cant sleep every night.. I am having those contractions already... I was up every hour, to feel it... But, it seems to be gone during the day..

On monday the 18th, Zahraa was up and well.. and my husbands voice is back again - I said.. ok.. now you can azan and qamat nicely rite? He just laugh at it.. He kept calling from the office, and work from home on some of the days, worried that I might be delivering.. All I said was.. I am still okay, dont think I will deliver. I just knew. But then my husband said; you keep having all these pain, why dont we just go and see Dr Yeap, on Wednesday, let her do what she wants to do with you.. I agreed, and said - Nak induce pun tak pe la... I couldnt stand this waiting anymore...

Wednesday night - 20.10.2010 -

I cant sleep a wink.. its very obvious. This is it.. this is the pain I am waiting for.. But its still 1 hour apart. When subuh arrived, i told my husband, its here.. the pain is here. Ok.. he got all geared up, getting ready - while I said : Alaa.. relax la.. belum lagi.. its 1 hour apart lagi.. buat la kerja apa dulu. settle kan all you issues..

6.40, 7.09, 7.35, 7.45, 8.00, 8.05, 8.30

That was the time written on that piece of paper on our fridge - my timing!

We sent Zahraa to school at almost 9, then went straight to Pantai Hospital. At 9.30 I was at the delivery suit, the nurses wonder why I was there, as my due is still 3-4 days ahead, and I have no show yet. Told them I had contractions every 20 minutes. My doc request them to do a ctg test on me.. and there, in the labor room, waiting, with my husband. He said : Alhamdulillah.. today is the day! He's so confident... hahhaha... suddenly, at 10.15 am.. I shivered.. said - Oh no... its so painful, I am totally in pain... ouch ouch ouch.. my sister arrived, reciting doa and holding my hands - (she was crying.. errggh.. that is what she always does... breaking me...) Told her its okay.. i have to go tru this, like every mother does.

Ctg test ended at 10.30 am, showing I have contractions every 10 minutes that lasted about 20-30 seconds. A matron - told me to go to my doc clinic.. what????? She said - we might not know if she'll be warded today.. before the nurse takes me to the clinic, my husband said to the matron: she'll be surely deliver today. (the nurse who pushed my wheel chair kept apologizing)

My doctor have me checked - at 11.30am.
'You're 4 cm already... and its already thinning, in fact very thin.. why dont you come earlier???' And I was so in pain - suddenly. 'Ok, you are ready to deliver today, lets walk you to the labor room (pushed on a wheel chair was what she mean...malu nya naik wheel chair) and i'll pop you water bag in a short while.. that will help you dilate faster.'

But, on the way to the labor room - (yeah.. again) - I felt a water gush from in me.. 'What's that? I'm wet.. I'm leaking... ' The nurse told my doctor that I've broke my water bag. I panicked, never had this before.. 'Its ok, thats a good sign, you wont be long', my doc says.. then telling the nurses to prepare me and she'll be back in 40 minutes.

MY sister was then chased out of the labor room, no sisters allowed, they told her.. (haiyaa.. just teld them you're my mtoher laa) I was changed to the blue hospital dress, and the 'prepared' me.. well.. err.. you know.. for the birth. And then my husband came in, back after registering and everything. Telling me my sister is waiting outside. She wasnt there when i delivered Zahraa, so this was like a first time to her...

12.00 noon - the pain was so obvious. Oh.. very very painful.. its different this time.. I keep on breathing.. trying to practice those breathing technique - from the book Adriana lend me, just add those doa at that time I exhale - a technique I invented myself.. hahahahha... I asked for the painkiller this time and they shot my butt.. but that seems nothing.. arggh nothing at all!!! (masa Zahraa sempat tgk tv nak tunggu dilate)

12.30 pm - I was shaking .. shivering.. and all of them u name it.. but this time I wasnt complaining that much compared to Zahraa's time, even though it is more painful. I just tried to take in everything, relieve them with doa and breathe.. I was checked and told I am 8 cm - 'this is fast' the nurse said, I asked for the gas.. errghhh lega sket bila dapat... with the gas, i felt time moves slower now.. and I was high with it.. felt dizzy and sleeply.. my husband hold my hand and recite Quran.. I am so dizzy I dont know what verse that was. The nurse told me to called them, if I've feel like a passing motion coming. After sometime I let go of my husband hand, just so i can squeeze the bed frame - i need somehting stronger to hold on to, every time the pain comes.. I was shaking and shivering..

I dont know exactly what time.. but maybe 1.15, because my husband came back from Zuhur. I ring the bell.. Kenapa? my husband asked .. I said.. I think its here. Nurses came in.. asking why.. told her I'm having a passing motion feeling.. then a matron came in.. she said she thinks I am full, VE was made then ( I hated VE!!!!!!)' Oh.. you are fully dilated dear.. you can push anytime you are ready'.. and then there goes nurses buzzles preparing whatever tools drapes and bla bla bla.. took my gas away (heeyyyyyy I want that) The doctor came in, and said 'no need of that gas, I want you to concentrate' I said 'Its not coming yet.. I can feel it moving down'

In less than 2 minutes I then said 'Ok, its here...' Then as in most cases, or almost similar with what u see on tv... they'll be voices of nurses and the doctor telling me to push, and how to ... most that I hear comes from the matron 'You push like u want to berak, hard like you havent berak for 3 days' - I wnated to laugh actually.. hahahhah but that really directs me.. I didnt know how to push when I delivered Zahraa.. this time i kinda get the idea... 'Yes, you are doing it right, just a bit more...I can see your baby coming, you can do it this time, come on.. ' I can hear my doc said. 'Yes, a bit more' But I have issues my my breathing.. I have short breath and it's not enough to slide my baby out..

By the time my doc said 'yes, your baby is coming, good, you're doing very well', suddenly I had my leg cramp! 'My legs!! Left one.. its cramp!!!' Nurses ran to my left side, massaging, trying to release the cramp... 'Its ok.. relax and take your time.. and continue whenever you are ready..' Later I hear the matron says 'Dont we wanna help her with vacuum or something?' (oh yess.. I can hear that dear nurse.. please do..... ) 'No, you can do it.. you dont need help, its already halfway thru, check the baby's heart rate. this time i want you to try do it on your own. youre doing very well'

Then this came from my mouth - ', its here..' and I went all the way in one breath erggggghhhhhhhhhhhh and blab! the baby was out, and was suddenly on my belly... 'there you go.... good job, good job' 'See... you're doing well... see, your baby is just fine' All I could say is 'Alhamdulillahh...... ' and then just realize my husband is patting my shoulder and head.. 'Tell me whats your baby' the doc said... weak - I said .. a girl.. I had a girl... and tears of relieved came by. It was 1:51 pm.

And after that - I was given another shot-concurrent with the plasenta being pulled out. Given the gas again, and the doctor then working on - stitching me!!! Ouch ouch.. this time it was also painful! The baby was brought in for me to nurse her...but i was so high on the gas I couldnt do so....

At 2.40 pm... I was done.. The doctor told me that was a good one, fast smooth delivery (yearrighttt.. who knows how 'smooth' the pain was.....) and bla bla bla about my stitches, and bla bla bla something burst, open wound.. bla bla bla.. i was high.. and tired....

And that was it.. alhamdulillah, my husband then came in then told me the baby is perfect and healthy. She is 3.1 kg. Only after that I realized it was different delivering Zahraa. This time, no iv drop wire attached to me.. not even the ctg thingie.. I am actually free without being attached to anything... and not much gas as Zahraa did.. and most of all - no vacuum...

And so.. welcome lil Nasuha to the world.. thank you Allah for this opportunity - to have given birth again ..we've seen and felt how Great You are...

Monday, November 1, 2010

a new addition

Yet to announce in this blog.

Yup, alhamdulillah.. i have given birth to a healthy baby girl in Pantai Hospital Penang, on the 20th October 2010, at 1:51 pm. Our 3.1 kg baby girl is healthy, measured at 51cm long and we have named her Nasuha bt Zahrein.

Our long wait has ended, and we are so glad to have this new addition inour family.. gosh i feel so blessed.. and most of all relieved that the pregnancy is over. Being pregnant is fun tho, i admit.. but towards the end.. i am tired and felt uncomfortable.. with the uneasiness feeling, impatient to meet the baby, worries of the baby's well being and others-makes me feel so much better when it ended.
ALhamdulillah, she is now in my hands.. well..

So, meet our girl.. NASUHA!

So it looks like my life is going changed now, with her in it now. And I am curious about it..being able to handle two girls? I am going on a ride to find love with Nasuha, insyallah as I did with Zahraa..

** Do you think she looks like Zahraa? Sometimes I think she does.. but most of the times - I dont think so...

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

MBW International Babywearing Week 2010 Giveaway Contest

IBW is here again, and here i am participating in MBW Photo Contest!

This is my participation on Teddywearer Category.

Well, of course I dont have any slings bought or made for Zahraa, but she always wanted to carry her teddy.. well, babywearing is not about the gadgets right, its about the act itself and the benefits it brings to you! So, enjoy baby wearing, even my lil one does!!!

Caption: Mama.. this shoulder type comfy la.. ok je.. and look, i am handsfree!

This one is on Babywearing and older child Category

While other toddlers are started to be carried with SSC or MT when they turn more than 1 year old, my husband still prefers his pouch. He said, he dont li
ke back carry, as he cant hold and kiss his lil girl, and he said he likes the way he can hold Zahraa while she's in the pouch. And as for Zahraa, she still loves being in it too! 2.5 years old and still in the pouch.

This is for the Babywearing a Newborn Category

Carrying 7 days Nasuha in a ring sling.. it feels goos to get hold a baby close to your heart again!!!

Monday, October 18, 2010

gradation wraps

Remember i wrote about wraps the other day? How crazy i am to try on wrapping? Now i am crazy on gradation wraps!!!! Gradation wraps are wraps which are dyed with 1, 2 or more colours in a gradation manner. in other words they are in tones! And they are damn pretty... cant hardly resist.

Wanna see some? Hold your breath.. these are among my favorite, taken from Luminusence, Tsumiko, Rainbow Revolution and some are DIY by tbw mothers.

And the last 2 pictures are from Psling.. nice riteeeeee ??????

IBW: Safe baby wearing

IBW is here again!!!!! And I cant join in this year.. but anyway.. i do still celebrate it, from where I am now. Here's the flyer Farrah did for us, didnt have time to print this out. Really wish i could - nak distribute kat hospital, best place ot start.Nampak tak gambar bawah sekali tu?? My husband is also a Malaysian babywearer! I am so proud, and lucky Zahraa to have a dad like him - 2.5 years old, and still in his pouch!

how will i know i'm in labor

Been searching a lot of into, just to make sure I had the right signs. But my favorite is this one, form Childbirth Solutions Inc.

How will I know I'm in labor?

by Pam Cass

If I had to pick the one question that every woman asks as she prepares for her birth, it would be a fairly easy choice: How will I know when I’m in labor? Even women who have had babies before remember that their bodies send them lots of odd signals that labor is on the way. It can be like you are receiving messages from your body in a secret code. You know that these messages are important but you don’t have the key to decode them. Look upon this article as your own secret decoder ring. Read it and learn how to decipher whatever messages your body sends you as it gears up for the birth of your baby.

On Your Mark

The following signs may or may not signal that you are in a very early stage of labor. Usually they are just signs that your body is preparing itself for the work ahead. Pay attention, but don’t go calling your mother yet.

· Nesting Urge:

You might feel a strong desire to tidy things up; doing all kinds of things that yesterday would have seemed way more trouble than they were worth. This might be anything from standing on a chair to organize the spices you haven’t touched in a year to threatening to clobber your husband if he doesn’t finish putting the crib up. Go ahead and nest to your heart’s content, just be careful not to wear yourself out!

· Soft Bowel Movements:

You may have several soft bowel movements in the space of a day or two and may be accompanied by mild cramps. We’re not talking diarrhea or severe pain. Clearly, that would be a signal to call your care provider.

· Menstrual-type abdominal cramps:

These cramps will be irregular and mild. They will remind you of the Braxton Hicks contractions you’ve been having, maybe just a bit stronger. The pain can radiate down into your thighs, but it shouldn’t double you over.

· Backache:

A low, vague, persistent backache may not be anything new to you at all. If it is, don’t get too excited, it’s probably just the weight of the baby and some practice contractions. See if you can get your special someone to rub your back. If they won’t do it, just about anyone you are vaguely acquainted with will do.

Get Set

These signs may be signaling that you are having some very early labor. Sometimes this can go on for up to a few days, although you may zip through it pretty quickly. You might want to check on where your support people plan to be for the next couple of days, just in case.

· Bloody show:

The bloody show is a small amount of blood tinged mucous from your vagina. You are especially likely to see it after a vaginal exam. The key words here are small amount. If it’s anything more than that…go ahead and call your care provider, even if it is two in the morning.

· Losing the Mucous Plug:

There is no better way to describe this, really. It looks just like a little plug of pinkish-whitish mucous smeared with a little blood. You might see in the toilet one day since it passes through your vagina having functioned as a barrier in the cervix to keep germs from getting to the baby until now. Losing it is a sign that your cervix has started to dilate. Great news, but don’t start pushing yet.

· Prodromal Contractions:

Let’s not have any of that “false labor” talk, if you please. We’re talking very early labor contractions here. They may be regular when you have them but can stop just when you think they are really getting serious and then start again just as you are finally getting some sleep. However, they refuse to really crank up by becoming longer, stronger and closer together. These contractions while they may be slowly driving you mad, are helping to thin and soften the cervix.


Okay, time to really sit up and take notice. These signs don’t mean you have to call Ricky, Fred and Ethel and head to the hospital, but you can count on holding your baby in your arms instead of your belly within the next couple of days.

· Regular Contractions:

These may start out no stronger than menstrual cramps, but they are regular; meaning that your belly gradually tightens, reaches a peak, then gradually relaxes again. Then you have a break lasting several minutes, then have another contraction. If you have been up and about lay down for a rest; if you’ve been resting, take a walk. If these are labor contractions, the activity changes won’t affect them. The key difference between these contractions and the Braxton Hicks contractions and/or prodromal contractions you’ve been having is that these grow longer, stronger and closer together. Make sure you put the champagne in the fridge!

· Gush of water from the vagina:

Fewer than one fourth of all women begin their labor this way, so you’re probably not going flood the produce department at Safeway. But, I’m making no promises. If your water breaks, take time out from dancing a jig to notice what it looks and smells like. Then call your care provider and doula and give them a full report. You may not need to head right off to your birth place, but they’ll appreciate the heads up and you may want your doula to come over and hang out with you, just in case you’re one of the women whose contractions get really intense immediately.

OK, so i am 'On your mark' now.. and waiting for those 'get set' moment. Seems like I am being a lil impatient here right?

naughty, cute and cuddly

Zahraa is somewhere along those lines... she could be very hyper and naughty at once time, and so adorable and cute and lovable at some other time. All I could say is geramnyaaaa dengan Zahraa! rasa nak cubit cubit dia!! Some times I bite her.. she cried.. heheh kesian.. sorry la, mama nakal. Well, she deserves all my attention that she wants, she;s gonna be kakak in a few days time. So I let her bully me, peluk la mama sampai mama kemik pun tak pe. I love you and will always love you.

She is now - 2 years 8 months.
We can converse with her now, with words people could understand. She can take orders too, and well could protest too! She eats on her own - just that sometimes i'd like to feed her (to confine mess of course, and just to pamper her once in a while) She now can take off her clothes on her own - well, thats new issue to us... it could be anytime that she runs out of the room stripped naked! Argghh.. hate when that happen - i have to go chasing her around the house to dress her again. She is now has also tried to dress on her own - with her temper - it aint that cute for me.
She loves to run around, climb, and I could see that she's a fast lil girl - just like her father. She used to love swimming, but lately seems to refure. She said -sejuk- most of the times. So the big, wide pool at our new home has not been her favorite yard, yet.

Zahraa loves animal, and of course every day we were forced to watch animal planet with her-let it be insects, reptiles, or weird looking creatures. She loves them all. Her favorite are horses, elephants and turtles. Oh, there's one more: she loves cow!!!! Zahrein has to bring her somewhere in Sg Ara, just to look at cows, and shoot some vids, and keep in the phone - for her entertainment!

She didnt gain much - just 11.5 kg.. as long as I remember, since setahun lebih, she was at that same weight. But her paed said, it's ok, as long as she could pick up things fast, active and eat well. Zahraa can count to 10, can count stuffs, and now learning phonics. She can say alif till ya - but yet to recognize all.

I'm really looking forwards to introduce Zahraa to her new sibling - she might not take it well, but who knows.. Zahra- the love of my life, hope Allah bless her, gave her knowlegde and wisdom, and protects her in iman.. ameeen..
oh yes.. i miss marche.. @tweetmamas, i'll be in Kl in December, insyallah.. plan a gathering ok...

tik tok tik tok tik tok

Yup, the clock is ticking.. and i'm ticking inside too.. I think this has been a looong wait for me. Well, doc, 2 weeks ago u said i could pop anytime. Then a week ago, you said i am 1cm far and get ready anytime for it. But I am sure Allah has His own plan. And I am still waiting - hoping that i could still cope, and have the patience.

Could feel the contractions, could feel those discomfort inside my belly. I even could say I could feel I am dilating (dont ask me how) but I am waiting for 'that' to happen so we could rush to the hospital. I have no worry going there, as its just behind our home.. its just the doc mentioned 'dont come too late, i might be somewhere downtown' and you know how traffic could be in Penang - that made me nervous.

Zahraa's time was easy.. it was all braxton hicks - and suddenly there's a blood show. So easy-we just head to the hospital. This time, there were pain, un easiness, contractions - but all seems irregular. I said once before ' Oh tolong laa.. jangan pecah air depan2 orang, buat malu je' but today, I thought, let it be.. then its easier to know that the hospital would be the next thing.

Last week the doc said she could induce me, and i'll deliver right on the same day! But then she said it might not be necessary as i wouldnt be long. Well, it has been almost 6 days since Wednesday - and I am still here. I hope i'll be healthy while waiting.

missed entries

Raya dah abis.. but I remembered I havent flood this blog with raya pictures as usual, and as other blogs does. I dont have the mood weeks ago, and I'll let other friends flood theirs with raya pictures. So, today.. here i am .. wanted to flood my blog with pictures again..
Bare with me - wearing the same baju kurung - the only baju raya, and among those could fit at 8 months. The baju kurung was tailored to fit my belly. somewhere along the 'pesak' and 'badan' baju was made different by the tailor.

It is so difficult to shoot our raya pictures this raya. Zahraa wont sit still!! Or she'll make faces to it!!! At last what we did was get ready on the usual sofa, turn on upin on the tv-there she goes, still and stiff! And so we got our raya pictures! heheheh

Hensem tak pahlawan saya nih ? :D

Here's at Sime Darby Convention Centre - we got married here!

Monday, October 4, 2010

37 weeks drama

I'm not playing any drama. Those at the office would always say-they could work till the day they are in labor. Some would say-staying home is a waste of time-penat je tunggu and buat rugi cuti je. Some says-tak seronok la nanti sakit sorang2 kat rumah-no drama.

But I am already tired. See... as for now its not yet 11am an i'm tired already.. feel so weak.. and mcm nak baring je.. my back ache, my damn ass ache too. I went to the loo one minute after the other..walking here and there is not fun anymore when my feet hurts, my pelvic bone hurts, and my -you know what- also hurts. It seems like an annoying complain, but yes.. i am hurting anywhere..

Some people might not have gone thru what i am going thru now. For some mothers, pregnancy are all fun, and being pretty and glowing. Yes, lucky you.. but some might not. I just wish that every one could understand this-that not all women went thru the same thing. Its lucky that I could still work the whole 9 months (yes..this complain goes to you dear office).

I might keep on complaining.. bare with me.. well.. only few weeks left til i end this.

Just a reminder-I dont want this too.. would you??????

All we want is a smooth pregnancy, smooth delivery, and a healthy baby an mummy in the end.. amin.....

Monday, September 6, 2010

i am 33 weeks

No one is interested to snap my picture.. (yes, there goes to you My Hubby) of being pregnant. Who knows whether I might got pregnant again or not rite? There were outing picture we took, but those really doesnt show my belly (or my belly isnt really showing that much-shud the camera be blamed? heh) So I decided to snap a pic of myself.. reminding me how did I look like carrying baby No 2. :D

Ini ialah baju raya tahun lepas, and this is me in it-32 weeks and counting down....

near to everywhere?

Yup, we dont have a nice country height surrounding. I dont have a hill view too. I have no land to plant trees, yet let my child play in the yard.

But what we do have is a place close to every where!!!

These are taken from the lift lobby of our place.. These are roof top of Sri Malaysia Hotel. To the left is Masjid Bayan Baru-couldnt get that angle tho.

Can you see the blue roofed building, yellow painted? That Hospital Pantai, I will deliver there insyallah.

And that green roofed building? Thats Giant Hypermarket of course.

I'll snap some pics of the opposite direction later (where my office and Zahraa's nursery are) :D

For some people a nice environment is priority of an asset..but in our case, convenience comes first. Maybe we'll find some nicer place for retirement later.. hehe -maybe.

Monday, August 30, 2010

miss you, mak

I was at the musolla just now-for Zuhur when i saw Kak Zu, in read baju kurung and matching tudung. She really reminds me of my late mother. My mother dresses just like bright colours, matching tudung and shoes, and nice handbag by her arms, and an umbrella by the other hands. Red, orange, yellow and glaring green are her colours. She'll always dresses up nicely, she even was called 'datin' by her officemates. She always condemn how i dress, and those tudung i wear - wanted me to as pretty as her all the time. She took my sister to a boutique and let her try all the baju kurung, she waiting outside the fitting room, giving out comments. My mother would never wear, never a tudung that does not fit or match the baju kurung she is wearing. She's always wears a baju kurung, or kebaya or kurung moden. I remembered she tried to wear pants and skirts, but it lasted only for 3 months, then she passed away. Her dresses are still in her wardrobe, all kept by my dad before my dad pass away too. And he arranged her shoes all nicely underneath those dresses.

I wonder if she is still here today. I am so lousy in dressing up-wearing the same thing over and over again lately (as i have only few choice that could fit me now) I even would wear un match tudung - Yani called it decons - yearright.. alasan. I could guess if my mom is here I'll have hours of blabs form her - I knew what she would say - pakai macam orang tua, colour tak ceria langsung, spec ni - beli la yang ada fashion sket.. and so on and so forth.. hahahah I think that would be funny - my housewife sister dresses nicer than I did.. :P In other way, I'd like to know what would it be like if she is still here. I know she always wants the best for her daughter. And my guess is, she is gonna spend all her way dressing up Zahraa.

I miss mak.. Ramadhan always reminds me of her. her pudding, her cendol and teh tarik. She's a working mother so she doesnt make kuih everyday. But once in a while her rainbow pudding rocks! And bubur pulut hitam too. Those are my favorite.

Now I am 'the mak'. Having a family on my own. Now I make puddings for my family, and I made the teh tarik for my husband - just like my mom made for my dad. Simply, she's there in my heart, in my heart everyday.

It has been 11 years mak.. May Allah bless you, and till we meet again...

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

crazy over this

So pretty .........

baby is coming!

I have the urgency to prepare baby stuffs.. Havent buy many things yet-couldnt find time. For now, all I could do is to gather Zahraa's old stuffs.. but while doing so - ye la. sibuk je kakak ni kan..

Zahra's diaper stash - pass on??

Nak tolong lipat la konon.. end up she wants to wear this stuffs.. dulu masa baby tak nak pakai topi ngan bib.. ni sibuk pulak

mummy wannabe

She always play with my tudung, my office tag, my bags.. and my other stuffs.And yes.. she wants an apron too..Looks like kena tempah kat Auntie Neeza la nanti.. boleh ya Auntie?? :D